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This is what it’s like when you see the world in blur

 

When you see the world in blur, you don’t notice things. You feel things. You may be the last one to know the details, but you’re always the first one to sense when something’s up.

When you see the world in blur, you learn not to trust your eyesight.

You learn not to depend on things that can be seen. You second guess things that are tangible, or anything that’s too obvious and superficial. You are a skeptic for anything that’s too real, or to simple. Instead, you trust your gut instinct, intuition, or whatever you called that inner knowing, above all else. Your intuition becomes your compass and map in dealing with the world too focus on looks and visuals.

When you see the world in blur, it’s really like seeing 360 degrees, or more like ‘sensing’ 360 degrees. You will learn to use all your senses, maybe not in its fullest and almost superhuman potential that others with lost sight do, but still in a way that it’s almost above human average. This goes to say that you are more fond of everything that involves the other senses like warm hugs, soulful music, exotic perfumes, and good tasting food.

When you see the world in blur, you love tuning out.

You almost always tune everything out. Because you have lived your life almost half-blind, you basically—though won’t necessarily admit it—doesn’t much care about your physical surroundings or what may be happening around. Instead, you always find yourself lost in your own mind, your own thoughts, and your own dreamscape.

When you see the world in blur, you alternate between being extremely cautious one day for your safety and being recklessly risky the next. This mostly applies to crossing the roads and not minding about cars that are about to hit you on your side, because for the meantime anyway, they’re all just a bunch of colors. And sometimes, you just can’t help but be not afraid of what you cannot see.

When you see the world in blur, you are compelled to become a good people reader, especially in meeting someone for the first time. You have to know almost everything about that person at first ‘close’ face interaction—the choices of their clothes, how they stand, what makes them tick, what makes their eyes light up, or what makes their voice pitch a little bit higher—without looking like you’re already filing some information about them at a corner in your mind for future reference. This you do so you might at least distinguish them when your paths cross on a busy street or even on a deserted corridor. But most likely, the efforts will be futile and you’ll come across as a snob.

In avoiding this, you tend to memorize people.

You memorize their physiques, their builds, their clothes, the way they hold themselves (especially the way they hold themselves), the way they walk, the sound of their voice, and even their smell. You do this quite automatically, almost unconsciously. And it may take three or four meetings or more before you finally ‘see’ them from afar.

When you see the world in blur, you don’t believe at love at first sight. You may fall in love with their voice and their touches and how they hold your hand, or their scent, or with how they carry themselves and how they open the doors for you every time. You will learn not to hold onto anyone’s looks as your sight is as fleeting as their appearances. Instead, you hold on to their energy, on how they make you feel, and what they feel about themselves, and what they feel about you.

When you see the world in blur, you’ll learn the delicate art of balancing what to trust and what not to trust. What is real and what is not real. What to doubt and what not to doubt. You’ll have an uncanny sense of knowing without knowing how.

You will learn to listen to the world, instead of seeing the world.

And you’ll learn most especially, to listen to yourself.

Yet sometimes, you will still make mistakes in your judgements. And that’s okay. Eyesight is hardly perfect, you can also err.

 

2 Comments

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    michael

    March 2, 2014

    strangely insightful and almost painfully true in my experience, great post

    • Reply

      Pink Woods

      March 2, 2014

      Thank you!! Glad to know i’m not the only one. 🙂

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